life
ok guys im about to post about everything loll just read it :) hope you enjoy.life.
when i was young, i thought i will be so happy, and have a lot of friends.
well, i used to, but not anymore.
for me, life is like a sky. sometimes its rain, sometimes its bright.
but now, the sky of my life is raining. hahah
i never ever thought i'd be like this, never expect it, never imagine it.
and did you also know that every 7 years, cell in our bodies changed? so every 7 years, we are a new people. and i kinda miss my past.
the memories. sometimes it hurts to flashback, because i know everything will never be as it used to, and i really wish i could go back. but i cant.
the friends, the laugh, the joke, the silly conversation, the tears, the pain, the love, everything. i miss that. i miss my old life. everything is different now, and i hate that.
and honestly i dont know what i'll do with my life. only go to school, private course, eat, sleep, breath. i spend my time, like its the same and nothings changed. but when i look back, everythings changed. its weird, isnt it?
the i miss you feelings.
do you ever miss someone, that it hurts inside? cause you dont know if those person misses you too, or forget you. do you ever miss someone, but that person doesnt exist anymore?
its kinda like, they've changed. so you dont know who they are now and you really miss the old them.
sometimes im confused about 'feelings' and 'love'.
its just, idk. i never understand life. i never understand feelings. i never understand love.
and sometimes im just tired of having feelings, because i can feel pain, hurt, insecure, and anything worse.
'friends'
im still bored so i want to post something again hahah.
friends. do you have friends? i bet you have a lot.
me? of course i have a lot too.
friends is just friends, you know, nothing special.
but about best friend, do you have it?
me? hmm.. i still dont know, maybe i dont have it (?)
Best friend is someone who will always be there for you, always understand you, always care, never want to see you sad, will do anything to make you feel better, will always listen and will always know if you're sad, even if you didnt say anything.
for me best friend is like that,.
if best friend is like that, i dont think i have a best friend.
but i used to have one, she is perfect to me, and also, she is the only one i can talk to about everything.
but now? she left.
yeah, thats life. people changed. people left. feelings fade.
i've been trying like its ok but you know its never easy for me.
i thought me and her will never ever ever ever ever apart, but the truth is, we are.
maybe its not her fault, maybe it was my fault. and maybe it will always be my fault. idk.
im sorry everything changed.
and honestly idk if i can find someone again who can truly understand me like she did..
okay okay im so dramatic now hahahahahah nevermind, ok?
and what about you? you have a best friend? if you have one, you're so lucky, not like me.
maybe i just havent found it yet. maybe later i will find someone again who will always be there for me..
but right now i cant handle if anyone left me again, this year, a lot of people had left.
and honestly i dont know how to trust people again. but you know, i still trust her.
and now i am telling you everything ._. joke not everything so i'll stop before i tell you everything ahahahah okay bye :) #ignorethispost
Fantasy.
hey guys i am bored so i want to post about something.fantasy. what do you think about that?
well i think fantasy is amazing, because you can imagine things you wish you did or you wish you were there.
fantasy is also thoughts in mind, isnt it? or imagine.
and i've been thinking of forest. i've been thinking of sitting in the forest, surround with a lot of old tree, many grass, alone, its just seem so peaceful you know. i like it.
and i also imagine about being an actress and stop school hahah i know its not gonna happens but so what if i want to imagine it? at least i have dreams.
and i also imagine about being pretty. i mean, who doesnt want to be pretty??
and i also imagine about going to paris and london and france and england, its a romantic city, a classy city. i always want to live there, maybe i'd be so happy. but i also know if i live there, it must cost a lot.
and i also imagine about moving to australia or america, i want to school in there but my mom wont let me because right now, im still too young, she said.
vintage girl. vintage photography. sky. anything beautiful. i love it.
life is beautiful, but why i still cant feel it? i just imagine it. in my mind.
i really wish i could go to all those places. and never come back to here. hmm..
yayy
hello everyone, sorry i havent post anything in a while. i was so busy.but today i am free yay im so happy my middle test has finished! xD
I kinda worried about the results because you know, my math and physics, and also biology, and also other lessons. but i know God will give me the best.
And finally i've finished my tik's homework. so im just gonna take a rest, a long rest with this life. hahah.
but, monday is school again :( ugh im lazy.
dear school, y u no give us a holiday!?
and also, i want to graduate faster please please please cause i dont belong in that class im always alone k. but i dont mind being alone anymore..
hmm and, i've been thinking about where will i go to high school, and maybe, mahatma gandhi school, what do you think about that? because maybe at collage i want to school in other country, so i need to adaptation in international school.
and btw, i've been searching a video about hair tutorial in youtube and i found a lot, i really want my hair to be cute like those girls, but im not good at braid or anything to do with hair xo. i love braid, because its simple and kinda cute, even if its 'old fashioned'? but i dont think so. and also i love curly hair, my hair isnt straight but isnt too curly too so its kinda asdfghjkl. hahah idk i also love high buns, its really cool and simple but also, i cant do that with my hair, yet.
and about the clothes. its been a long time since i went to forever 21 and i want to check out the clothes, but if i check it i would love it and want to buy it and i dont have money lol. i'd like to shopping right now.
k bye :)
its friday night!
hey guys how are you, sorry i didnt post anything yesterday, i was busy and tired.next week is gonna be a battle so maybe i'll absent posting a post hahah.
today is like usual, i just chilling every friday night. i thought that this night i will study for the exam, but yeah, im lazy to study again, so maybe tomorrow.
btw, anyone knows what's hipster? i bet most of you know it. and yes, i love hipster because the clothes and style are so cool and its only for teenagers. i've been buying hipster clothes, and now im kinda broken, my wallet is almost empty ahaha, so maybe i wont buy anything for this time.
next week after i finish my exam, maybe i will go to a mall with my friends. maybe we'll watch a movie, resident evil of course, i havent watch it -- and maybe we'll check out the forever 21 and maybe i will want it again, but i wont buy it, because it is expensive haha.
now it's supposed to be my skype time with my friend, pw. but she is offline, i've told her to online skype, she said yes, but you know she's kinda confusing and asdfgjkl. lol
okok bye :)
asdfghjkl
hey guys how are you?finally, tomorrow is a free day for me, but still, i need to study and have to go to the piano course. friday will be a middle exam --
today in my all lesson course i dont study anything because im not in the mood, so i was just talking with my friends. we talked about a lot of things hahaha.
i was listening to a music and it is really describe how i feel these days :
"Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming"
umm, maybe tonight i will sleep over. i will just laying in bed and think. about everything.
and i will fall asleep, naturally.
next week is gonna be a battle between me and exam hahah, i want to have a good score, i will study hard this time. i wont make my parent disappointed with my score, but the only problem is.. physics and math :( and also english, im not really good at speaking english, you can see it by my post in this blog, i bet my grammar is messed up :x hahah but it will get better :)
k thanks for reading bye Gbu :)
Lazy Monday
Hey guys these days has been good for me.Today i think i can do the exam.
And btw i will add one more html in my tik's homework about the illuminati.
Cant wait to present it, cause i love to talk about it. Maybe later i'll post about the illuminati, just want to let ya guys know haha.
And yes, tomorrow i dont even have a homework or exam so yeah i am so happy, no need to study :D
But, tomorrow i have an english project about comunities, im a but nervous :/
And i failed my physics again :( i know i cant..
But i dont really think about it, whatever will be, it will be.
And im so blessed today and yesterday2, i hope you guys too! Thanks God :)
And what's up with you? :D
hey
hey guys how are you? sorry i didnt post anything yesterday, i was busy.okay today im so happy i was shopping at itc after church with my friend, yuly.
she has a great taste of fashion! i buy 2 clothes and 1 pants, and i really love it <3
Thanks God! :)
btw, today in my church the pastor sermon about the K-POP ILLUMINATI.
what's behind their popularity, and anything about it. it was a bit creepy, but luckily i never liked k-pop.
just beware guys, k-pop is illuminati, if you dont believe me, just search in youtube "k-pop illuminati".
ew, today is school. again. so lazy to school, i just want to lay in bed and sleep. haha its impossible --
today my bbm is off so i cant chat with my friends. and with "him" (?) lol hahahaah jkjk.
ok sorry my grammar is messed up but im trying to write it perfectly, even if its still messed up hahah ok bye Gb :D
TGIF
yay, finally its friday! im free, i can sleep late :DToday i failed at my english exam :( i thought i'd get a great score, but the test was just really hard and its just has a little number so i cant fail more than 3 if i want to get 80 +.
today i didnt eat and play with my friends at the rest time 1 in the school because i was studying for my math exam, i was ready i guess, until the teacher give me the test. i though i've already understand everything and i can do it well, and then once again, i was wrong. i mean, yes i understand everything, but when the test is on my hands, my brain just went blank, i cant remember anything! grrr i bet i'll get remedials again :(
today i can breathe, i am healthy, i can eat, i can walk, thanks God for another blessing.
The Flashmob
hey guys i've told you that last week, i dance flashmob, like a presentation at my church. wanna see the photos? :) here it is :
almost friday..
hey guys how are you, its almost friday! XD cant wait for friday night.today i dont think i will pass tik's test because im cant do 2 number. i was wrong at 1 number, i was choosing the wrong answer and the teacher didnt allowed us to cross it or wear correction tape so yeah, i lost 1 number :(
today i have english test too, its reading, its easy but its not. im so scared because im not really sure with my answer, but i just hope i will pass.
Today is another blessing from God, another breath, another day, thanks God :D
tomorrow i have english exam, i have studied hard, so i am really hoping i would get 90 + .
tomorrow i also have math exam, i was never sure in this exam, and i will never sure. because im really stupid at math and physics, i mean, i do study, but i just cant, because its my deficiency. but i just hope i can get at least 75 +.
i've been thinking of changes my blog, i always write about my diary, my every schedule, i would post something about fashion and also my diary. i hope you guys would like it, but later haha.
okay i guess that's all, thankyou Godbless :D
Wuhuu
Hey guys how are you?
Ok im very tired right now, i just got home from my course. Tomorrow i have tik exam and i hope i can do it well. The problem is, i havent study all tik's lesson yet im already so tired an sleepy, my eyes is hurt too.
Today's going well, thanks God :) today i play with my friend, Citra Fu, but i always call her 'fu' because its just simple. She is so funny and adorable, i love playing with her! And also my friend, priscilla winnie, but i always call her 'pw' hahaa, she is nice too, but i fight a lot with her, just a playing fight, and sometimes she can become so annoying.
I hope tomorrow i can play again with all of my friends.
Today i think about which school will i join at high school, maybe gandhi, what do you think? But im afraid that i dont belong there, or even worse i get bullied hahaa.
Kay i want to study again and pack my things for tomorrow, thanks for reading, Godbless :)
YAYY
hey guys how's your day?finally i've changed my themes, so what do you think about it? i know my old themes is much better but yeah, my new themes can look for the older post, can be followed, and have a comment box.
so, please dont forget to follow and comment, i'll followback and reply your comment :D
Today i was playing basket with friends, then suddenly a basketball hit my head, it was hurt so i was upset. and then i turn around and scream really loud, "WHO HIT ME!?", everyone was very surprised and my friends, evelyn said she was and she didnt mean it, so i laughed a lot, because it was actually funny. she was very shocked when i screamed and mad hahahahaa.
Okay guess thats all today, goodbye, goodnight. love ya <3
miss me? ;p
hey guys sorry i haven't update anything for 2 days, i was busy ._.okay, today i've received my score of english exam. i failed once, i got 65 :/ but that's okay i think, because in another one i got 80/85 i forgot hahaa thanks God :D
Tomorrow there will be an event at my old school, Canaan. They were invited me to join, but idk if i can went there after school. I dont really want it honestly, maybe i'll visit them later.
Finally, tomorrow is like a free day because i dont have an exam and homework, ;'D
And btw guys, maybe im gonna change my themes, because it have no "next", "follow", and "comment", but i really love this themes :( but if i've changed my themes dont forget to follow and comment me yo :D
ok i think it's enough, i'll post something later, bye, goodnight, Godbless :D
Bad saturday night
Dear diary, today i am tired. I dont know why, but lemme explain my schedule today.
I wake up and i was just relaxing for a few hour, and then at 1.30 i prepared and went to the church. I ate chicken penyet, it is so so so delicious, i guess you all should taste it! And then i worship God. After that, i went to the piano course, im so glad that i can play piano with 2 hands now, thanks God :)
After that i went home, i just relaxing because i was tired. Trust me, its not that easy as you think, my church's tower is big, i have to walk it over and over again.
When i was home i sleep again, honestly i have to go to the doctor after i wake up. But when my mom call that place, they said my doctor is gone, so i have to go tomorrow. Im kinda glad because im lazy to go to the doctor, i have to go to there like once in 2 week and about what problem i have and what kind of sick i have, its a secret :p
So i stay at home and was watching the river, that movie is just so good and amazing, its kinda horror and i love it! You should watch it, full of mistery.
After that i forget the time and i was playing with my phone and chatting. I just realize i have to study physics cause i have a test on monday.
Thanks God now i have done study psychics, maybe i'll study later gain.
And i guess tomorrow will be a tiring day.. Huh, im so tired of my schedule, i want to take a break from life, can i?
Funny day
Goodnight everyone! :) how are you?
Today is a funny day, i was playing with my friend with something like bamboo, we hit each other but its just pretend, not really hit, and then he hit me and he didnt know that he hit the bamboo too hard and its hit my nose, and its so hurt, i was crying because i thought my nose is moving or bleeding a lot. But then he said it was okay, i checked it on the mirror and i was like thanks God my nose is ok. He was confused because i cried but i laugh too, yeah i cried because it hurts and i laughed because it was so funny hahahhaah.
And i think today is been a good day, i almost done my canvas with the sands.
And my blackberry messenger is active and i can chat again with my friends :D
I have some problems, but i think thats okay, i wont let the problems makes me depressed, i will face it, and i know i can solve it, because God will never give a problem i cant handle, and i know God always helps me to through it. So if one of you have problems, dont let it ruin your day, just pray, and trust in God.
Okay im so sleepy now bye everyone Godblessyou! :)
Guess what
Hello everyone! :)
Guess what?? Today my mom bought me the blackberry! Yay, im so excited! Thankyou so much God and mom XD
But my sim card is error so i cant use it now, maybe tomorrow cause i want to buy a new simcard.
Today's been a great day but actually i have a 'little' problem, but thats okay, not a big deal.
From now i would study harder, and focus on every lesson, because i want to get a high score and make my mom proud of me, i promise, and if i did it i know its not because im great and clever, but its because God, He is so great, right?
Tomorrow is english test and im freaking out because i dont know if i can do it, i will study and i hope tomorrow i can get a really really good score, i really want it :D
Okay thanks for reading, Goodnight, and Godblessyou! :D
Better day :)
Goodnight everyone, how are you? :)
Today is a lot better than yesterday yesterday, i start to enjoy being in school, i chat with my friends and it was really fun. I chat with them about horror story, and anything scary, because i like something's creepy, yet im not afraid.
And today as usual i play at 9b with my friends, i love being in that class, the friends are so fun and nice.
After school i went home and i sleep for a while, after that i go to my lesson course.
After that i went home and chilling.
Im so tired at school because i sleep really late, i keep saying that i will sleep earlier tomorrow but it never happens. Lol.
Btw in the school, at physics lesson i feel so dumb, i sit there and not even understand one single thing, im really stupid at physics and math, and its gonna be hard for me because i hate it, i mean i hate the lesson, not the teacher. So im just hoping that i will understand it as soon as possible.
Okay guess thats all, bye, Godbless :D
This Feelings
hey guys, how are you? sorry i havent update anything yesterday, i was busy.i want to tell you a good news, about me, finally my mom order me a blackberry! yayy im so happy, thanks God, thanks mom :D but at the same time i feel like i waste money, because i already have another phone.
but i know God have a best plans for me, so i dont really mind it.
today, i was go home faster than before because my teacher was having a meeting, so im happy.
but today i have extracurricular basketball and im so tired, so when i got home, i sleep.
i sleep at 2pm, and i will wake up at 3 pm, but when i wake up im just you know, i still feel so tired, so i just sleep again, i say 5 more minutes, but i keep sleeping until 6 pm --
and so, for sure tonight its gonna be hard for me to sleep.
as usual, at the break time i play with my friends in another class, i was so happy in that moment and when the bell was ringing, i was sad because i know i'll be alone again in my class without them :(
but thankfully, now i have few friends to talk to in my class, we're not really close but im still trying to be close with them.
tomorrow is school, again. idk why but i just feel tired, always tired, even after i sleep for hours, i wake up and feel tired. maybe its because something, something that i cant tell you, and i hope everyday is getting better and better, not just for me, but for you too :)
and by the way, about my tik's homework, i've done it and i'll give it to my teacher tomorrow, but im afraid that my html is bad than any other student, im afraid that my html isnt good enough, because i want to get a really really high score in this html project. and i hope it will :)
okay, i guess thats all, thanks God for everything :) and thanks for reading, Godblessyou, goodnight! :)
Exciting Day
hey guys, how are you?today i am so excited, i wake up at 4.00 am :o
its way too earlier, isnt it? then i prepared because at 5.00 am i have go to the church, i want to dance in front of many people, we use colorful dress code, and i love it so much!
i dance 3 times, and im not really nervous cause i know God is with me :)
i take a lot of photos, maybe i will upload it soon, because i havent transfer my pic from my phone to my laptop.
and by the way im broke, i spend a lot of money lately, idk why i just really love shopping and i think i want to sell something that can give me more money so i can buy more clothes or just save the money haha, so what do you think about it?
i used to sell something, some of my friends order it, but i always forget it and when i remember it im too lazy to take the stuff they want, sounds weird, right? lol
but yeah maybe i'll think about it this time.
by the way tomorrow i have more lesson than usual in my school and i am so lazy, im sad because i dont really like being in school, idk why but these days i just lost my mood in everything, i usually love play with my friends but now i dont really like it idk why, im just so quiet these days. and im so tired because i want this to ends soon, i know im gonna miss my friends and teacher, but i can visit my school again sometimes.
okay guys, goodnight, Godblessyou :) dont forget to follow me on twitter! @christinavina :)
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